one hundred and fifty five

so as always, I'm a strong believer in the fact that everything happens for a reason. 

So today was the day, the day that Lelo was going into surgery, the whole family was super scared because to be honest, we were not positive that he would survive the surgery. So I went to work and asked God to help me grant me my one wish for the day, which was to be able to give Lelo a kiss and tell him I love him right before the surgery. Well they let me go home early from work so I was able to give him my kiss and tell him I loved him and it made me the happiest girl for a short while. 

Well as the hours went by while the surgery was going on the coversations, tears, and fears arose. 

My uncle came down for the surgery. 

My uncle that I have not spoken to since the day he kicked me out of his home

My uncle, aunt, and cousins that I have not seen or spoken to since that day.

Well I promised myself and to everyone to be civil because my grudge with my uncle was not the time or place to be showing them.

However, it was pretty hard to hold a grudge with anyone the second I saw my aunt. My aunt that came to me in tears because of how much she missed me, well the tears followed quickly when I saw my cousins that I hadn't seen in years. Especially the second they called me "tata." Yeah, call me a loser, dork, sucker, whatever but I love those kids to much that no stupid grudge with a stupid man could change that.

Lelo came out fine from the surgery. 

He'll be drugged up and in recovery and rehab for a bit. 

We were advised that if they wouldn't have done the surgery, 

he would've quickly passed. 

So we are all very happy that Lelo will still be with us for a little more. 

So yeah, 

Everything happens for a reason.

Sometimes you need something bad for something better to happen.

and as much as today hurt us, to not know if my grandfather would make it through the day or the week

for him to wake up without half of his leg

I thank God it happened.

He's now better than before

He will now be with us

I gave him my kiss 

and 

I reunited with my cousins.