two hundred and eight

They say that calls in the middle of the night are usually the worst
but dam we didn't see this call coming today


6:10am and my dad walks in telling me to get dressed Lelo's not doing good
needless to say
we didn't make it in time


he passed.


I know its what we've all wanted for awhile, for him to just be at peace and not suffering, but "the want" is so hurtful when it becomes a reality.
You practically raised me and to see you in pain was the worst but to not have you here is so hard. I'm not going to beat myself over my head like I always do saying that I didn't visit you enough, because I did visit you. I know I could've done more but I didn't and for that I'm sorry but you're at peace now. You're with the love of your life and the mother in mine. And I know you're watching over us from up above and even though you're not there in the flesh, I know you're still here in spirit with Lela.
Lelo te quiero siempre y que descanses en paz.


take time and appreciate everything and everyone. 
Once you lose them
you can't get it back.